We Survived!!!! I wasn’t so sure that I would be able to say that after dropping him off this morning. It was rough. For BOTH of us. And I am ashamed to say that I think I made the situation much worse than it should have been. He was SO EXCITED as we were driving to the school. He kept telling Collin where to turn and what to do. It was really cute. Then he started in with “You are going to stay with me.” Much more of an order than a request. We kept explaining the way things would go and he kept insisting that we would stay. So anyway, we walked him in and took him to his class. He wanted to play, not sit in circle time like was expected of him. He finally sat with me , but DID NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES want me to leave. That’s when things started to get shaky for Mama. All I wanted to do was gather my baby boy up in my arms, walk out of that classroom and NEVER come back. I kept thinking “He’s my baby, he’s too young, he needs his Mama!!!” The tears started coming. One thing you should know about me is that once the tears start, I can’t stop them. No matter how hard I try. And they continue throughout the rest of the day. So, I’m frantically trying to wipe my eyes so he won’t see me cry and all the while he has a death grip around my neck. I walk out to the hall with him pretty much attached to me, give him a kiss, and tell him I love him. Then I take Clara Beth from Collin and send him in there to deal with the situation. I should have done this from the beginning. He’s so much better at these things than I am. Collin does a short and sweet “Good-bye, and I love you”, and lets him know that we will be back for him in just a couple of hours. He is crying, in the arms of his WONDERFUL teacher, Ms. M. We listened to him cry for about 45 seconds and then he stopped, so we left. I, on the other hand, continued to cry for the rest of the day. In the 3 hours that I was away from him, I received pep talks from Collin, Mom, Jessica, Wendy, and Rebecca. Not to mention the many emails from other friends. Why am I such a wienie???? Thankfully, while I was home crying in my coffee he was at school making new friends and having a BLAST! This was so evident as he approached the car after school. A HUGE smile, and the declaration that he “didn’t want to leave”. I was SO RELIEVED. The rest of the day was all about Mak. He was uncharacteristically cuddly today. I received many unsolicited hugs and kisses. I LOVE LOVE LOVE him, and I am so incredibly proud of him. I can’t believe that this tiny baby that I birthed three and a half years ago is now starting school. This seems like the first “BIG” letting-go step that I have dealt with, and I’m not gonna lie- it’s HARD. But I know it will get better, and it is what’s best for him.
*Sidenote* The boy has already fallen for his teacher! Sooo many sentences this afternoon started with “Ms. M said…” And she seemed to really like him, too (which of course made me love her!). I am so thankful that God has provided such a sweet woman to teach him. We have been praying for her for many months! And then we saw the Teacher’s aid, Mrs. P, at the grocery store tonight. Well that was just about the COOLEST thing ever to Mak! Teachers exist outside of school??? He loves these Ladies!
A nervous face…
Mommy reassuring him that it would be “So Fun!”
And now on to after school…The men were here fixing our new stove when we got home. He loved watching them work!
Daddy brought him some bubble wrap…
We went to Sonic for lunch. This restaurant was carefully picked out by Collin and me. It’s outside, they have a yellow jeep for him to ride, you can see the tractors working at the Toyota dealership across the street, and they have ice-cream. What could be better?
He informed me that he is now able to push Clara Beth because he is “big enough”.
He shared with Sissy
What a bite!!!
Our last stop was Target to get a first-day-of-school surprise. Remember the Garbage truck that he got sidetracked by in the School Supplies post? Yeah- he got that.